Bitchicisms

One of the main differences between men and women, I believe, is their motive. There are long standing jokes about women after a date wherein they dissect everything and men just think in plain terms, and half the time don't even know if there's a problem.

I'm bringing this up now beause, well, I'm trying to figure out something. Which is bad. Why? Well because if you are it means either something isn't working or something is working too well. 

Situation: A man has turned me down. I wanted to have sex and he did not. The reasons he gave are the following:

1. He knows I'm really a nice girl and I'm just drunk.
2. We have certain common friends (who he probably doesn't want to know about a tryst because he may be trying to fuck some of them).
3. He has to maintain his creative flow because he has to write.
4. He sees something more in me and he thinks we can be friends (the first part of this made my eyes pop a little).

Just the fact that there are several entries in the list above already made me confused what the deal was. I have evidence that this man is interested in me:

1. He held my hand and kissed it.
2. He asked for my number.
3. He started the flirting with his body language. 
4. He initiated the first time we kissed (I was going to kiss him on the cheek but he turned his head so it landed on his lips and I was like, ok.)
5. He has kissed me again. 
6. And yes, I am gonna say it, I see it in his eyes. 

And granted, yes, the man is not hot. Well, his face looks ordinary enough but his body is kind of bear-ish in the old way I liked (taller than me and meaty. reference: V, X). And he is quite funny yet not as charming as some of the guys I've met (read:H and others), we have a lot in common and we can be good friends. But honestly, I just really wanted to fuck this one. And he turned me down. Which has NEVER happened to me before.

So we get drunk and I crash and I force him (very easily) to sleep in the same bed. I'm down to my knickers and he's got on shorts and a shirt. We groped, I went down on him a little, I masturbated (and came) 2x and he fondled my tits and put his fingers inside me. There was one time he was even jacking off behind me as we were spooning and he was slapping his cock against me. Most of that was my fault, but he initiated some too and he wasn't stoppind me too hard. Here are some of the lines he uttered during the night:

"It's not you. You're really really hot. " (uttered 10 times to which I always replied, "uh yeah"

"You must think I'm stupid." (often uttered after the line above to which I would again answer, "uh yeah.)

"You have a nice ass. I thought that when I met you, that you have nicely shaped hips."

"Listen do you wanna just go running with me tomorrow?"

"Why did you stop sucking me?" (I replied, cos you're not gonna fuck me anyway.)

"Why me, you can have any man you wanted. I bet you can get another man in 20 minutes."

 "Do you want to wake up and have a guy open your mouth like this (he presses my cheeks and opens my lips) and have him come inside your mouth?" (I told him it depends if we've already had sex)

"God you are so wet."

"Most women would be grateful..." (I'm assuming he means that they've been respected. I didn't want respect that night. I just wanted to fuck.)

If that isn't ocnfusing then I don't know what is. Two main points have been raised that may explain why things happened. One is that he really really wants to fuckour common friend and another is that it was a style. If it was the former, well, not sleeping with me will not ruin his chances and I guess the groping wouldn't work in his favor either. The funny thing is, I have no plans of telling our common friend. We're not as close as we appear to be. If it's the former, I guess it could work if I really really wanted to sleep with him. But nooow...not really... 

But I do agree with him. I am really really hot.